Sick of these ….

I work for an agency and I usually love my work, because I work from home, from my phone.

It’s a pretty easy job but I get a lot of crap from the ladies and gents that do call.

Like this morning I get a big long text from a girl and she’s swearing at me through text. Like fuck off.

You know what xxxxc take me f****** off I’m f****** done with this how f****** ignorant my famous last words how about not f****** pre-booking me and Kimmy f****** pissed off again and again and again take me off I’m f****** done working with you guys I’m not dealing with this why my f****** pissed off still the morning later after I f****** told you over and over I don’t want pre-booked they never go through this is the same as me going to Authority and I tell him don’t do a single thing over and over and over again he keeps doing it and f****** cringing take me off I f****** done

That’s not even half of it. So she quit, which I am estatic about because we’ve had so many complaints regarding her service…

No need for me to make excuses for this dumb girl anymore.,

Oh and to top it all off it wasn’t even my doing.


Until next time πŸ’™πŸ’š

Still no-one reading my blog!

It’s probably not a big deal to some, but I’m totally trying to figure out if even one person is reading my crap that I post.

I know I’m not up on all current events and write about stuff that doesn’t even matter. Maybe if I wrote about Trudeau or Trump somebody would comment or not.

All I can do us keep pressing publish!

Until next time πŸ’™πŸ’šπŸ₯°

New plans for March 1, 2020

It’s really not new plans. I am in fact , well hopefully it will all work out in the end. I have no more faith in my will power. I should because I’ve been pretty good with my intermittent fasting.

I have not read Gin Stephens book on it. Delay don’t Deny. I am going to start March with a major change. Melt away March. I have to cut out all processed foods. I occasionally liked once a month I’ll have a can of pop but no more.

I love intermittent fasting WOL(way of life). I thought it would be so hard to stop eating after 8pm. But to my surprise it’s so easy and who doesn’t love easy? I do I do!

Well wish me luck with no processed food

Until next time πŸ’™πŸ’šπŸŒ±πŸ₯°

Trip to Mall πŸ™„

First a visit to Shoppers Drug Mart.. to get some granola bars that were on sale, while my partner went and grabbed some razors and some Listerine. In the meantime I started over t to Carlton cards because they are going out of business 😒

Weird they have been around for as long as I can remember. Everything must go! Greetings cards .15 cents.. grabbed a whole bunch.

Then off to CIBC to pay a credit card bill. And get this…. They were only letting 3 people in at a time because I guess “Bank robberies” are on the rise.. WTF this Canada this has to stop

Does she know she’s the first one to injured or shot if bank robbers come to the bank. Does she want to put her life on the line for a company she works for probably being paid only minimal wage.. I think she is brave, because I I don’t know if I could put my life on the line for a job. Maybe that’s just me.

Off to Dollarama to pick up a few more supplies and then grocery store to get some eggs..

Until next time πŸ’“πŸ₯°πŸ€£

What am I supposed to believe?

Honesty….one thing I have not been. Since being an adult I have heard so many lies it’s not even funny. Lies from my father and mother telling me that there is Santa Claus, Easter Bunny and the stupid tooth fairy. Then lies from me not telling my husband I was being unfaithful. I guess I had to lie at the time. I am so not proud of that time.

Don’t even get me started on political shit cuz that’s one area I am not educated on.. lol

I’m new at this blogging I have ideas that go through my head at night when I’m laying in bed at night but don’t write them down. DOH

Again till next time


Why am I so lost?

I’m at home and just finished watching the Good Doctor…very good show… I love the characters and the premise.

Anyway I am bored and the thought of slitting my wrists just doesn’t seem like something I can do, way to much blood. I don’t want to kill myself because it would kill my son and my mom. Unfortunately my mother has already been through it with the suicide of my baby brother 😩 God I miss you day we’ll see each other again and we’ll be hanging out up there in heaven.

Until next time


Not a day goes by…..

You are missed, sad but true.

Your memory lives on even though you are gone.

Not a day goes by that I don’t shed a tear.

It’s sad that you’re not here, and a struggle for some.

We carry on in difficult times but your memory lives on.

Helping us, guiding us and loving us.

It’s been two years and I’m finally accepting the truth.

Not a day goes by that I don’t think it’s a lie.

The truth sets in and in hopes that one day we’ll see you again.

You’re the ” Chef in the sky”Β  And that my stepson will never die.

Forever in our hearts and never forgotten.

Hugs from below, smiles from above,

Not a day go by ….

This poem I wrote in memory of my stepson that sadly left us 2 years agoΒ  Β ;(

I think I don’t care :(

It’s been a long time since I’ve had any happy thoughts.Β  With that I don’t know how I’m going to handle my life.Β  People lie constantly and I have so many trust issues I can’t think straight.Β  I fantasize about being happy and believing in some sort of higher being (GOD).Β  I’m at wit’s end and don’t know what to do or even if anyone is listening.Β  Who do I talk to? Where do I go?Β  Why is life getting so hard to understand?Β  I myself can not answer any of these questions and it’s sad.Β  As I TYPE THIS TEARS ARE STREAMING DOWN MY FACE,

❀ B